Too tired to cry

I'm in a very weird mood today, caught somewhere b/w depressed and complacent. Maybe it's the fact that I flew in late last night from Texas (after going to a wedding...something which always causes me to think about my life and the idea of spending forever w/ someone and how I can't possibly imagine what that would be like or if that's even what I want).

Or maybe it's because ever since the new year began, I've been trying to make so many changes to myself (joking that as long as I stick to one resolution I will be happy...but I've only stuck to one resolution and I'm not happy). Should I just give up and accept myself, flaws/annoying habits/personality defects and all? Or should I keep trying, hoping that someday I will walk past a crooked picture frame and not straighten it?

And work is so effing busy I can't even take 5 minutes to talk about myself on this blog. And all I want to do is go home and sleep until I wake up and feel better.

Will I ever stop complaining? I just want to be content for a day. Just to see what it's like.
R.